I have had quite a few caring questions lately about how we are doing. The more perceptive of those around us (or those closest to us) recognize that November could be a difficult month.The beginning of the end.
Or, the beginning of the ... beginning? Forgive me for being eternally optimistic, but there has been no ending here. We celebrated Sabrina's birthday in a way we were not able to last year. We have been loved on and cared for by family and friends. God has been present, cushioning us and protecting us from November in many expected and unexpected ways.
I look outside my window and am comforted by my Christmas lights. My brother bought them and put them up after Nicholas' funeral as a gift to us. I didn't let Corrie take them down this summer because I love to see them and be reminded. I read the comments on my blog posts and am encouraged by Corrie's mom. She always has words of love and grace when I need them most. I treasure each one of them. An aunt leaves me a voice mail and tells me she loves me. Friends tell me they're thinking of us and praying for us. I know my dear friends on the prayer team are holding our family up in intercession.
I still have a lot of questions. I heard a great quote that "trust means that you will have unanswered questions." I choose to trust and believe that there are very good answers somewhere to my questions. I still miss my children. They are as close to me as breath. Nothing will change that.
I have learned that there are very few things in my life that are truly under my control. November and its memories are not under my control. They exist, just as they are. What I can control, is how I respond to them. That, my friends, is what replaces despair with hope.
5 comments:
beautiful thoughts Lisa!
{hugs}
V.
Corrie, Lisa & Sabrina....you are all in our thoughts and prayers. I am glad that your Mom & Trish are there with you for a few days.
Lisa....can you add a "follow this blog" widget so that I can follow yours? I lost it and thankfully found you after doing a search.
Take care, sending you lots of hugs!
Dawn
Hi Dawn, thanks for your kind note. It was really good to have a "girls weekend". And it's also great to know people are thinking of us and praying for us.
I think I added what you were looking for...a subscription widget? Check out the bottom of the right-hand side.
Lisa
Once again, I came to your blog thinking to leave an encouraging comment, but I am the one leaving encouraged--thank you.
While we are all reminded of what happened during this time last year, I want you to know that I am here for you. I am always hesitant to ask, but I often wonder what's on your on mind these days because I can't imagine what you are going through. Remember that you are loved, and even when you least expect it, someone is always thinking about you - like the girl sitting across from you :o)
Enjoy cooking and organizing.
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