Reason to Sing

All of my life

In every season

You are still God

I have a reason to sing

I have a reason to worship

from "The Desert Song" by
Hillsong

Corrie and I recently had the privilege of being interviewed to support the Children's Hospital radio telethon here in Winnipeg. We believe in the good work they do to help sick children and their families and appreciated the chance to give back in what ever way we could.

It's been a while since I've had to tell the whole story to someone. In the social situations where I've needed to mention that Nicholas & Olivia were in Heaven, it wasn't the time or the place to go into the details. The people we interact with the most also went through the whole thing with us at the same time we did. We were told that day at the radiothon that our story was one of the saddest they had heard. It's been a while since I've heard that comment, so I wasn't prepared with a response other than "thank you". I know that they were being kind and trying to validate our pain and empathize with our situation, but it's still a hard thing to hear when there are so many sad things going on around us.

I know now how I would respond. Our story is not a sad one. It is one of victory. And of peace. And hope. We have gone through bitter loss and have emerged whole and strong. We have not been destroyed.

I've been thinking a lot about the lyric above and what it means in the context of my life. No matter what, I have a reason to sing. I had to meditate on that for quite a while before I came to the realization that if I'm reluctant to sing in every season of my life then there's something flawed in my understanding of who God is. If I have places of distrust, or bitterness, or skepticism, then I'm missing something and I need to seek the truth persistently until my understanding is restored. Only then can I have victory. And peace. And hope.